huh.

You ever get that feeling that your life is not how you perceive it? Like you thought you were way more important that you actually are? I had that happen today. I had that kind of moment where you just kinda stop and go...huh...wait...what? Nothing big happened. Quite the opposite, actually. It was a perfectly normal, monotonous day. I just cant get rid of the feeling that my perception of reality was soooooo far off base. My world kinda tilted. Huh.
Also, Ive been thinking a lot about friendships, and my own lack of them; I am a hard person to be friends with. I'm wishy washy, irritable, overly sensitive, and just kind of a grump. It takes a lot to get me out of the house, which is something Im dealing with personally, and I am forever caught in this rut where money is concerned. I never have any of it, and I know some of my friends are ok buying stuff to get me out of the house, but I absolutely HATE being the mooch. Ive been mooched off of, and I would never want someone to feel as disgusted with me, as I did of said moocher. I have no idea why my best friends put up with me the way that they do. I am blessed.
Thats all for this episode of visualized verbal vomit.