I sat here probably for a good 2 hours the other day trying to come up with something to write about. Looks like writers block has struck again. I started 3 different blogs about 3 completely different things, and then while reading them, I felt like I sounded lame, so I deleted them.
Most of the time I feel like I don't have the right to have an opinion. Ive never been an overly opinionated person, and Ive always enjoyed the fact that I could be neutral in most arguments. There are exceptions to this, because there are some things that I will vehemently argue about, but most of the time I can relate to both sides of any discussion, and stay neutral.
This does absolutely nothing for my new career as a blogger.
How interesting is it to read about how I float in the middle of discussions? How I get pulled back and forth, listening to each valid point both sides make? I wish I was more interesting than that. I watch people argue. I observe and make note of how their eyes flash and widen with passion for their topic. How their foreheads crease or the corners of their mouths turn down when they obviously disagree with something. How some people think they are hiding how they feel, when its written plainly on their face and in their eyes.
I am a watcher. I file the reactions away for future reference. Maybe that's why I never form an opinion. Its not that I'm stupid. Its not that I don't care. I just have my own agenda. I live in my own little world in my head, making notes for a story that doesn't exist yet.
I have come to the conclusion that I absorb other peoples opinion in order to write a more believable character. Do you buy that? Because I just came up with it, and I'm still rolling it around in my head to see if it fits me. I'm still trying to figure out who I am now after becoming a mother. I was fairly secure with who I was before my son was born, but now I have a completely different perspective. Its strange to discover that you aren't who you used to be. That things you held in the highest regard no longer matter. Very bizarre.
parenting does a strange thing to your sense of security
ReplyDeleteOne of the things that you can do to help writer's block is freewriting...or in November, take on the NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). The challenge is to write a 50,000 word novel in 30 days. The only way to achieve that output is to just write. Forget about how it sounds, don't edit yourself, just basically give it the "8 Mile" treatment (freestyle).
ReplyDeleteBelieve me, I go through periods of writer's block and don't know what to say on my blog. As a result, there's a lot of adding my thoughts about a piece of news or an article.
But, you should do some writing everyday. It's like working out. The first few days will be agony. You'll hate what you write. I don't even review my old blog posts anymore. I hate the writing, as well as the pompous attitude I had. But, I can't delete them either. I won't. Because they were part of me. Just set a goal to update your blog at least 3-4 times a week, and stick to it.